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Sunday, April 26, 2009

¨The Book¨

Chapter one:

I'm feeling kind of frustrated in part...things aren't as fine as I thought they'd be by this hour...
Thanks to that little puppy that is making our lives impossible. As I always say, that doesn't even scare me at all. It is history, it is a fact, it is true that Good always wins, so i guess there's no reason to worry about. She won't get what she wants because she's poor in soul and rich in money, wich isn't a good combination.

I'm not worried about what a stupid psycho girl wants to do to me or to him. I can scare her ten times better than she's doing, but that's not my thing. She's just making the chapters of this book I call my life more interesting.

I don't like to hate ppl, I don't believe hitting someone is the answer to find peace, but right now i'm really reconsidering that...

I'm getting more and more pissed everyday. I'm not losing patience though. She's making us pissed, but we can't let that happen because that's what she wants. It's like when u try and try and try so hard for something and u work ur ass off to get it right and when u think ur gonna get it...u have to start it all over again because someone put a trick in the way. That pisses a lot.

I'm in a situation that I don't know what to do. Everything I feel i'm able to do is to wait...and taking count of I'm not feeling right, I don't think that is absolutely enough.

One of the worst feelings a human being can feel is feeling Lost...that's how I feel now. I'm Lost but confident in my heart. Weird ah?

Yeah, is like I don't feel right about what's happening now but I believe everything's going to be ok. Like when someone u love tells u to close ur eyes and walk u don't know where. You r scared but u do it anyways because u trust and because u know that person will always protect u and won't hurt u. Like that.

I don't know how there are ppl around the world doing and undoing things as if they made it. Doing bad things to others. People hurting people and laughing at it. Letting those evil feelings take over them. Why does it have to be like that?

We all want things but not all deserve them or we just can't get them because they don't belong to us, so why?? Why fighting for something that is not mine?? Why hurting someone by taking something loved out of his hands?? Why hurt??

U guys can't imagine how desperate I am. I'm dying to scream his name and finally let the world know who this heart belongs to. I wish, I deeply wish with all my soul to be ready when the time gets and to finnally live my life happily ever by his side.

These are the pages of my own life I'm writing with an ink I call tears. And the pain that breaks my heart is when someone tries to cleave the pages along with the happiness I would have wrote on them...

As a baby, I fall. As a person, I make mistakes. As an idiot, I get lost. As common people, I want to be Happy. As a writer, I have a pencil and an eraser or maybe just the Delete key of my computer to erase the little grammar mistakes I may commit in my novel; but as a human, I only have a pen without a liquidpaper and multiples pages I can't turn back. As a creature of God, I have the right to be strong, stand up and learn how to walk foward without regreting my falls. And as myself, I have the right to be myself. 'Cause that's just a little part of living and living it's what's left in my road. Noone but me can decide the final chapter where I can find what I've been fighting so hard for and noone can take that away from me. These are my mistreated pages I'm trying to fix up. And I'll do it right.

*Original phrase:

¨Un lápiz con borra o la tecla Delete de un computador serían suficientes para enmendar los pequeños errores en el borrador de una novela, pero en la obra de la vida real sólo existe un bolígrafo sin liquidpaper y páginas rayadas que no viran hacia atrás¨.

Dariela Mariot.

Love, Dary♥

posted by *{♥}Dary{♥}♪* @ 4:28 PM